The Obvious Thing I Should Be Blogging About: Upcoming Finalization Date

It's the obvious choice of blog topic.  I should have blogged about it yesterday since that is the day we got the most amazing news that CPS finally officially recommended us for adoption a full year after they said they would.  I definitely should blog about it today now that we have been given our finalization day, less than three weeks from now.

Only, I don't think that I can.

I am not yet strong enough to relive all the emotions of the past year's roller coaster.  How can I celebrate the amazing news we received yesterday and today on here without explaining exactly why it is so amazing?  Of course, every single drop of pain and stress and wondering and uncertainty was worth it and will someday seem so small because the kids will so soon be OURS.  That doesn't mean I am ready to let it all out.

I probably need to let it all out, but so far I'm holding back all (most of, anyway) the tears of utter relief and just bathing in the shock and wonder that we are almost there.  For so very long I have longed for a day to mark on my calendar, and I circled the date this morning.  I. Have. A. Date!  I drove by the courthouse today, and it was a glorious sight for once.  We will be back there very soon and walk back out with two more forever children, two children who I couldn't imagine living without for the longest time now.

For today I am only celebrating and feeling the awe of it.  Another day I will have to let out all of the other emotions.  I want to let it all out, and I want to blog about it.  I want Cassia and Edison to know how much they were wanted and how I once spent an entire very scary year dreaming of the day that they would become forever mine.