Finalization Eve

It's here.  It's the night before finalization, and nothing has happened to cause it to cancel or be postponed! As afternoon hit, and things still seemed to be in order, it finally hit me how much I feared that something would happen that would cause finalization to not proceed as planned.

I have some sort of adoption stress condition because of this case.  Pretty much any time we got a hint of good news about forward progress of this case, it was very quickly followed by some not-so-good news or even very bad news.

We got the good news that we would be able to finally set a date and adopt Cassia and Edison three weeks ago, and all three weeks have now passed without any of the usual bad news to follow.  I really think that must mean that we will indeed be adopting them tomorrow after adoring them for the last 26 months!

Wow!

I truly cannot even wrap my brain around the relief and joy that will be ours a mere 14 hours from now.  Any time I think about how different tomorrow night will be from this one, I shake my head.  I just cannot believe that they will be my legal children tomorrow.  Is it possible?

No more case workers to fuss about normal active toddler bumps and bruises.  No more case workers to check to make sure that every prescribed medication was given exactly when it was supposed to be given.  No more case workers to tell me whether or not I can take them the five minute drive across the state border to visit a friend.  No more chance that my family will dwindle back down to three kids.

No more chance that I will have to pack up everything they have acquired over the last two years and somehow explain that they are going to live with a different mom even though I love them more than anything.  No more "what if"s.

They will be forever ours.  Tomorrow.

And this, my friends, is probably the last back shot you will see of these two for quite some time!