Friday, July 31, 2020

I Can't Take Away His Nightmares

My eight-year-old has started to have nightmares.  They happen every night now, and they always involve police chasing him.  I can't make it better, but I offer him lots of hugs and a spot next to my bed where he can sleep more soundly, where he feels protected and safe. I tell him that he is powerful and brave.  I tell him that he is safe.  I could tell him that our local police seem to primarily shoot those experiencing homelessness or those in mental health emergencies, but I don't want him to worry about our neighborhood friends.

Truth be told, I have those same nightmares in the daytime.  He's only a few years shy of being old enough to be considered a threat rather than adorable.  I can tell him that he's just a kid.  He's safe.  I believe that's true.  For now.  

These nightmares started when he is eight.  I imagine they will continue for the rest of his life.  This is his life.  I can't take the nightmares away, and I can't protect him from the realities behind the nightmare.

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